Super Power

A friend -- which one I can't for the life of me remember -- once asked me, "if you could have any super power what would you choose?"

Now I've always known what I would love to be able to above all else. So I responded straight away with, "I'd like to fly." *insert dreamy expression here*

My friend then says, "That's stupid. Everyone wants that. It doesn't count. It has to be a real super power!"

*Insert me being stunned and hurt*

I attempted to justify my choice by explaining that if I could fly without mechanical aid I could be free. I could soar and dive and be weightless -- well kind of -- for a while. I could go as fast or as slow as I'd want and I could reach heights that others could only dream of.

Yes, I did spend a lot of my childhood day dreaming about being free. Flying was the free way out. It also meant no one would be able to tell my parents where I had gone. Yep, I had it all figured out.

So when my friend said what they'd said I was rather devastated.

It's been about a year since then. Actually it may even be closer to two years. Whatever, it was some time ago. Anyway, I was sitting down playing a game on my phone while my thoughts ran over that particular conversation. And you know what? I started getting really angry.

Partly I was angry because I couldn't remember which friend it was and partly because they had no fucking right to say what I thought was stupid. I mean I would never say that about anyone's ideas or thoughts. Maybe that's from all the times I've been told I'm stupid, worthless, useless, if I had half a brain I'd be dangerous etc. It undermines every part of you and I couldn't live with myself if I ever did that.

You know, it's just another person making me feel worthless. I suppose I shouldn't care or at the very least I should be used to it. But I'm not used to it and I will always fucking care when someone makes me feel like shit.

If I could remember who the person was, and if I'm still friends with them, I think I'd tell them to fuck off. One or two years late but whatever.